Hello Hello !
Yes I know I’ve gone M.I.A again but believe it or not I’ve been super busy with … life as we know it ha !
Over the last couple of weeks/months (more since I got back from Melbourne) I have been trying to get my label in order, as well as going into depression phase and actually taking in every little thing that has happened since college has ended . At first I thought my “no reaction” to every BAD/DISAPPOINTING bit of news was a way of me “moving on” and being able to look on the “bright-side-of-things” but no… it only took a few weeks until it kicked in and I actually started to realise that “no I’m not okay with everything that has happened”. Unfortunately for most of it I can’t really do anything besides “go with it” ( which I think is the most absolute shittest way of going about anything” – but hey ! I kind of have to ).
So college is done – besides a few minor things – and well I don’t really feel like getting into the let down there. I guess after three years, I expected something… but no nothing. No sign of relief at all, and I think I’ve said that a million times over.I’ve been working so hard at college the past three years, The amount of dedication and effort I’ve put in doesn’t even add up to the unpredicted nothingness I’ve felt since I’ve left. The whole lack of guidance and tough love act – yeah it got me through, and yeah it’s made me become a tough little dragoness but it hasn’t fed me the success it was supposed to.
What made me good at doing what I did in college was using it as a distraction. A distraction from life, from love, and from pretty much anything I wanted it to distract me from. It’s almost like being in a relationship with a bad boy. He distracts you from your past hurts and everything going on – He’s a challenge, a smooth talker and He’s got you wrapped and because you are vulnerable he keeps indirectly hurting you. But you don’t realise this because you forgive and forget… in the moment anyway… ? and then all your friends sit around and tell you that it’s not good for you and that you deserve better and blah blah blah… So in this case.. I guess If I’ve compared the tough love of college to a relationship with a bad boy ?… I guess I should expect nothing from it then right ? But I do… because it takes a long time to believe in yourself and to have the courage to face all the douches ( and no I’m not talking about the boys here) along the way who tell you that you’re not good enough and try to psych you up for what they think is the industry ( industry to them are – mean and scary people who don’t give a f*#k about you unless you have connections and unless you can put up with their bullsh%t torture techniques…) I feel like I’ve been overlooked and popped into a category where you are only allowed to be told what to do and regardless of how you feel you aren’t allowed to have your way and if you do – God help you – because you won’t be receiving a good mark for doing anything that isn’t THEIR way !
You know each time – I had two choices – most of the time I would prove people wrong and earn it – but this last time for college – It was more like shut up , sit-down , and this is the direction you will take because I want you to ! Now here is a sick little twist to that one liner – what happens when you are half way through it all and this person – this thing – who has been steering and steering you into direction all of a sudden ups and disappears… ?! Well then I guess you’re in a bit of a pickle ?! Because now you are left with half of it being done, a whole bunch of questions by new people who are curious to know your direction and your ideas behind it all as they are so determined to try and understand – and I guess you look stupid if you turn around and say well.. such and so person steered it here in this direction so that’s my reason why ?!…
Inspirational message regarding moments like this – which I have now learnt from – never ever ever let anyone tell you how to do something you’re passionate about UNLESS you absolutely trust them and their instinct. Always stay true to yourself and be honest because you never know what may happen in a few days, weeks or months… It is better to walk away knowing you fought for it on your own terms rather than an unpredictable battle you secretly know you’ve already lost.
So now after all that – what I guess I’m trying to say is that I need another distraction… One I never thought I’d need from college. Yes, it’s kind of ended but I’m still stuck on what I wanted it to be for me and everything it hasn’t ?
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve learnt a lot and met amazing people along the way but everyone has their expectations ( yes mine are high !… or were high !… whatever ?!)
So in saying this – my new distraction is the label that was overlapping my final year at college. I’ve always wanted my own label and have been working very hard for it too… Yes it has been a slow process because I have been so busy with everything else but I’m sure I will get there soon. It has taken me awhile to get over it all as I’m still fresh out of college and yeah I guess I’m the emotional type too. I want it to be perfect and therefore because I have control over it, I’ll take all the time I want with it.
I suppose everything regarding college and the way it has made me feel will really come to an end once the fashion show at the end of the year is done…
Maybe then I’ll feel something ?
Maybe then I’ll be able to make sense of it all… ?
Maybe then I’ll finally be able to close this door and open up another really damn good one to complete yet another dramatic chapter in the life of Rhy.
…I hope so anyway.
and now to my beautiful followers and all the lovely people who stop by every now and then.
Thankyou for being part of this journey.
Always remember to be yourself – there’s nothing to lose there.
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and now for a pinch of fashion !!!!
SASS & BIDE x HAVAIANAS
To celebrate Australia Summer Sass and Bide have collaborated with Havaianas to create a limited edition style called “ Brazil, Brazil” ( $49.95).
Here’s more on the new style –
“The design duo has transformed the iconic footwear with their eclectic use of print & embellishment to create a unique summer staple. The slim style, “Brazil Brazil” features a monochromatic cheetah print, adorned with the iconic sass & bide gold star charm; a symbol of Sarah-Jane & Heidi’s enduring friendship & love. Both sass & bide and Havaianas embrace a free spirited approach to design with a mutual love & respect for tribal influence, drawing on beauty, movement & the natural world for inspiration” To read the full article by Havaianas simply click here
For those of you ( I really hope there aren’t that many of you) who haven’t heard of Havaianas, they are known as the world’s Best EVA rubber Sandals/Flip-flops/thongs – (whatever you call them wherever you are)
They have been around since 1962 and were inspired by the “zori”. These are Japanese sandals made of fabric straps and rice straw soles and for that very reason the sole of the havaianas have the same textured pattern. Since this time havaianas have been able to maintain there superb quality and have hundreds of styles and colours available.
If you don’t have a pair I totally suggest you get a pair ! They will indeed last you a lifetime and hardly ever fall out of shape.
Watch the video below
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