Another weekend in May, Another wedding. A fantasmical, magical, wedding. Disney inspired, I loved it ! Let’s kick the makeup off with none other than our, very favorite essentials : They’re Real Mascara by Benefit Cosmetics, and bourjois eyeshadow trios. … Continue reading
Dressing up Kendra! TGIF! Boy am I glad it’s Friday. I’m sure a lot of you are, Right!? Tonight’s post, as the name suggests, is about Dressing up Kendra! Kendra is a well-known travel expert. She has been featured on … Continue reading
I used to be a big believer in “How you spend your New Years is how you will spend the rest of the year”. I used to link everything to it, every negative event, any sign of bad luck and all of a sudden it would be the fault of that superstition combined with about a dozen others.This year, however, I’ve decided to try and leave all the paranoia,anxiety, and superstition behind.
Sometimes we go through really crazy stages in life, where we are so obsessed with perfection and the paranoia of not having enough control, we funnily, forget what life is really about. We lose control without noticing we are a c t u a l l y l o s i n g c o n t r o l. I think for me, the first time I realised this was when I was about 13/14. You start high school, your fellow snotty school mates mature and become monsters and bullies and all of a sudden you are the target, the aim of the game is to bring you down. Without saying too much I never really liked high school, I never understood what happened to the innocence in some, How one day it was there and come the first day of high school, it was gone – vanished, into the air. I was bullied so much that I didn’t like being encouraged, I didn’t like being complimented, I didn’t like getting attention in class for being smart, I didn’t like people knowing I was smart, I just didn’t know what I really wanted because they wanted to make everything positive, negative. That’s what they’d do, they’d prey. Then you have the people who absolutely adore you, who think you’re funny, amazing, a great friend – and by this stage you’re so confused – stuck between trying to make sense of the people who hate you and those who actually accept you – you start to doubt yourself and everything else in your life, you become paranoid, have major trust issues, and all these crazy symptoms surface. Before you know it, You’ve evolved into something you didn’t even know existed at that age. You’re the epitome of anxiety and paranoia. They made you, they control you and all the silly thoughts in your head. What will I wear? why did they say that ? What did they mean ? Are they looking at me ? Do I look okay ? My left eyebrow is out 2 millimetres to my right, do you think anyone notices ?! Why do they keep looking at me? Who will be there ? What did they say ? What will I wear ? I can’t wear that, what will they think ? Are they talking about me ? Is my hair funny ? Am I walking too slow ? Are people watching me ? Can people see me ? Can they hear me ? Did I just ask too many questions ? Am I talking too fast? Who’s reading my blog !? What did they say ? – Seriously WHO HASN’T THOUGHT ANY OF THOSE…Sometimes when you can’t fall asleep and your mind doesn’t SHUT OFF and LEAVE YOU ALONE…because you keep repeating stupid scenarios in your head or you are thinking one of those things – Don’t lie ! Sometimes when you want to leave the house, or are going somewhere….You think some of those things ! That’s you, girlfriend – that’s you right there…!
BUT HEY ! THAT’S OKAY !
Its a process – A part of growing up and finding yourself. Being confident, understanding that sometimes things go wrong and other times they go so smoothly,perfectly, so perfectly that you think, “COOL was that a dream?” The universe isn’t out to get to, It all depends on how you look at it and whether you have let your mind think you are weak or strong. Strength in the mind is a dangerous thing to have because you can conquer it all. Over the years I’ve learnt to become more independent, I’ve crazily tried to push myself – I’m always pushing myself, I’m so determined, so passionate, sometimes too passionate – I’m motivated, I have drive – Now isn’t it a shame that sometimes I get dragged down by peoples thoughts and opinions. Is it fair to treat someone like that ? It isn’t ! So if you’re reading this and you’re thinking I was the bad guy – pay it forward. Do something good for someone else, in hope that they will remember you and pass on that good. Don’t just do it because you want it to come back to you – immediately you will see how it will change your life. Think about the things you say, and how they will affect the other person.
After being bullied – I tried to understand why ? Maybe it was the thrill or something ? So I tried it myself. I tried to bully someone – I couldn’t do it… I tried to say the same words they said to me to someone else – I was thinking maybe I could gain some sort of confidence – Cheap shot it was. What did I learn from that ? Well, nothing I didn’t already know. It’s hard growing up when everything is run by judgement. That’s something I’m trying to work on this year. To be less judgemental, to seek more clarity when times get rough, to try to maintain a positive mind and to keep it strong.
You’re probably thinking how the heck is this related to LA or New Years and all that – Well CALM DOWN “HOLD YOUR HORSES” I’m getting to that.
See, I spent New Years at the most happiest place in the world…. Can you think of where that would be ?
The atmosphere, the happy workers, the families and children, the shows, sparks of energy, loud groups of laughter and joy, fireworks, cute childish rides, fake snow – It was how I spent the last day of 2013.
I was thinking WOW I’m here in LA, halfway across the world with my partner and my friends for a special occasion – I’m here with family I haven’t seen in so long – That I will miss so much. How lucky am I to be able to experience this, How lucky that I didn’t let all the people who brought out the worse in me get the best of me. I thought From this point onwards – I want to be less like the paranoid, anxious girl I have been, always thinking of what others are thinking, always playing along with the games in my mind – I want to be more confident, positive, alive. I want to look back and see I enjoyed it – I don’t want to remember sad, negative moments. AND I actually want to try and stay true to that.
The moment we walked into the gates and I saw this – I knew I could do it.
That’s my NYR ( New year Resolution). What’s yours ?
Well… Scroll away and enjoy yourselves – Part 3 of 3 of the LA Diaries !
It’s tradition that I visit Esmeralda ! hahaha
and that was the magical world of Disneyland !
Love my cuz ! ❤
Universal Studios – Another one of my favourite places !
Mel’s 50’s Diner !
Another Fake Paris ! I’ll be with you someday soon ❤
Our final wedding before we head back home !!
Well that was it guys !
If you get to the end of this post I just have a few things to say to you :
Thankyou for being in my life, stalking me, subscribing to me, actually sitting through and reading this.
Thankyou for making me stronger.
Always Remember that Positivity doesn’t have a door – It is just a frame, Think of it as a long hallway – It’s negativity that has a door – the door you have a key to. Lock it for good and try to keep it that way.
And finally, If you truly did get to the end of this and you felt inspired leave me a comment and tell me what you thought.
xoxo I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend !
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Much love, Yours Truly
hmmm.. so where do I start for the La diary ? I actually thought this would be easier but to be honest the weeks have gone by so quickly, it feels like it was a long long time ago.
I’m going to try my best to re-tell it through photos for you all.
But before I do that, I just want to touch on the word “Family”. Family to me is a very important thing, especially my immediate family. We are a tight, loyal bunch who are always there for each other no matter what. Here, in Australia I don’t really have as much family as I do overseas. So there is always this sort of… hole in my heart, and I do miss them often, quite alot actually. It’s funny though when I tell people I miss my cousins, they look at me in shock. I guess sometimes people don’t appreciate and realise just how lucky they are to have the warmth of loved ones around them in the same state or country.
So in saying this, I just want to let my family know that wherever you are in the world, no matter how far apart we are I love you and Miss you and I wish we could be with each other always. And if you are reading my blog, thankyou, I just wanted to let you know just how important you are to me, even if you already knew that.
Travelling overseas, isn’t always about experiencing the culture, the surroundings, the food, it’s also about spending as much time as you can with the people you love. This time around though, I didn’t get to do that much, too little time and busy running around – before I knew it, Time was up and it was a long flight back home. But I guess that’s okay because there will always be a next time, another opportunity to catch up.
What I love though, Is that every time I go back, It is like I never left and that I had been there with them everyday. That hole in my heart just fills right up, infact it overflows with warmth, acceptance and love ❤ Love you all from the bottom of my heart.
So, Where do I start ?
Let’s just let the camera roll do most of the talking Shall we ?
You know when you’re in California when you see those Palms…
Honolulu in Montrose was so beautifully lit up with Christmas Lights and decorations – It looked so beautiful in the night.
I love landscapes.
LA scenery really trips me out – It always look fake.
I always just want to scrunch my hand up against it because it looks like really good wallpaper or something.
IN N OUT ! Seriously if you don’t eat this while you are there you are completely missing out.
Animal Fries because I was hungry like animal –
and ofcourse appropriate tags – #YESiateboth #dontjudgeme #onvacation
(Don’t count the calories, seriously…don’t!)
Just the start of my shopping…
(I did this much damage in a few hours… but hey if I really have to look at it –
The above photo is a minor dent compared to the overall shopping on this trip. #quickhideyourbankstatement)
BIG WANGS !!!!
Say what ?
Okay, honestly – I HAVE NEVER SEEN “PEPSI-COLA” THIS SIZE !…
IT WAS MASSIVE….. OMG who needs REFILLS HERE !!!!!!
One of the best places to have spicy-ass hot wings, a great hangout with friends, and karaoke (if that’s what you’re into) !
Follow that up with some hooka – The night is not over until you have had some hooka
p.s we look so white – we have such GLOW !
Christmas at my Aunties place is always incredibly decorated.
Gotta love Christmas Spirit !
Why look – Where could we be ?
It is the happiest place in the world #disneyland
Spending New Years Eve at Disneyland
mmm Candy… Lots of Candy
Ahoy ! Pirate Ship time.
It’s a small world After all…
Every time I am at Disneyland I visit Esmerelda.
Just quietly, Some more shopping… I did good
Two weddings and no funerals.. Thankgod !
Thankyou to my amazing cousin for doing my makeup and going out of her way to get me where I needed to be on time looking like a doll !
And to my auntie who did my hair – Love you both so much !
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I’ll have to wrap it up now – But don’t worry There is a Part Deux Coming soon !
Oh oh oh and before I forget I hope everyone had a great Valentines day and weekend and that everyone has a safe and happy work week.
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xoxo Much love, Yours Truly